Plethora!

Ever wondered how we go on and on talking endlessly about love and its fallacies? Or, love and its magical mysteries?
As if there never existed another emotion…
I met a friend of mine today after 2 ½ years. Old buddy, fabulous well traveled job, a live-in relationship, bassist in an upcoming rock band from Australia, and an amazingly cute guy. ( HOT! Is an understatement!)
As usual, love lives are an easy topic to catch up on lost time… So there we were discussing the usual agony & ecstasy.
And then he mentioned something really hard hitting and true.
Hatred, he said, was the truest of all emotions or feelings.
Think about it. When we hate, we hate with our deepest loathe and disgust. We tend to get vengeful and work out meticulously planned strategies keeping a scrutiny on each and every move on our targets! Whoa… sounds like a war zone. But hey? That’s what hatred results into right?
Jealousy. Another fun feeling. Half the things we’re into today are because knowingly, unknowingly we let envy become our driving force. Ambition and zeal are just words for self flattery. Delve deep inside and you’ll unwillingly admit to yourself of all those times you’ve envied your own close buddies!( Holds true for me too)
Hunger. The deadliest of them all. It kills. Literally. And it’s not fun at all. Why so much crime and hatred and jealousy and all the negativity? Hunger for Sex, Money, Success, Revenge, Love, and the barest necessity of them all… Food.
Hunger is the worst enemy. But then again. The best friend.
Any takers?!

32 All Out!

Hmmm.What could be the wildest possible content of this post!? 32 All Out?
I miss Vaibhavi. Even though she's been away from the country for only 3 days... Even though i just chatted with her yesterday and didn't feel a thing! Well...
I miss calling her and nit picking tiny ridiculous fights.I miss her outrageous sense of glamour and fashion that makes her look the classiest and most stylish gal I know.
Enough! Lo and Behold! Am not a lesbian. I just miss a wonderful friend...
Why 32 All Out? Its the guy she married! Well she's an ever smiling babe!They both grin with their teeth (dunno whether All 32) out...Check out the snap.. You'll know what I mean. :0D
So seriously! Whats the point of this post...
I miss all my buddies. I miss being able to pick up the phone and dial those many numbers on my list(Hey! Am not pretending to be popular!) I miss chatting non stop over ridiculous issues. I miss ogling at guys and giggling like a little school girl. I miss wanting to shop till I drop. I miss worrying about school, college, exams etc.etc.
I miss being innocent.
That fact, that time makes you so aware and teaches you so much is a true deterrent to enjoying one's life. Not that its not good. But it hampers progress. What? Well. After a while you stop enjoying wanting to know and learn more. Curiousity gets filled with fear.
Responsibility brings great caution and what next can be a knee jerker! Well, who said growing up is easy? Na na na... Don't be mistaken. Am not facing the blues, and not entering adolescence blah blah blah.
I just wanted to express what I feel. Isn't that the point of this stupid blog idea any which way?
And the greatest thing that was ever said "I want to break free!"

05/11/2005...

4th Nov: I still coouldnt believe i was on my way to Goa for my best friend Rashmi's engagement... we reached Goa, late evening, met her "tobe" family :D had dinner, yappped till early morn... totalllly ripped off gaurav- poor guy i tortured him with my non stop ragging!n then slept off only to be woken up for b'fast n an exciting day ahead! 5th Nov : Rashmi's engagement day! we were all ready n set by 6... we went to Gaurav's place (Rashmi's fiance) for the ceremony...beautiful house n a very handsome dog ! fell in love with the whole concept of Sakar puda( thats wat the goans n maharashtrians call the engagement ceremony) where the couple exchange sugar to mark their ceremony... they played a game... b4 the rings got exchanged where the made rashmi sing n gaurav propose in ishtyle! his parents were sooooo coool! we just couldnt stop laughing! All the love and romance in the air made me so heady... post dinner we went to Tito's (rashmi,gaurav, their siblings, gaurav;s friend Shirish, and me n ma sis Juhi) - the music n the place was sooooooooooo awesome... i got on the flooor n was lost in ma own world... non stop dancing... just guzzled a beer or two... dint neeed n alcohol... the whole evening was sooooooo dam intoxicating!!!! like some1 had entrapped me in a trance enchantment!! Next morning... we head out to xplore the beaches of Goa... had a long ferry ride with jhatak music entertaining us... had coffeee and then back to the hotel for the cocktail party... there again... we had a fab time chatting up with both their families, yum,mmmmmm dinnner n cocktails!!!!!!! next day... back to bombay.... MAN I HAD SUCH AN AMAZING TIME.... he is a Goan and she is a Marwadi! waaah! tok abt love marriages ! i know one thing after i see the two of them together.... true love ... conquers ALL !!! Well... atleast my faith in love is still intact! AMEN

Acceptance

Vermillion sun set.
Hands folded, I look upto the almighty.
Flashes of memory scar my mind.
The soul is forlorn and desperate for equanimity.
I breathe my day's work and look up for answers.
I find none. . .
Restless. I search.
Alas! I tiny hidden voice speaks,
"You search in vain!", it says."
He who has no questions, seeks no answers."

Passions Unbound!

Cool breeze playing with her hair,
Droplets of rain like colourful pearls,
White sands kissing her feet,
She walks in beauty carved to perfection.

I hold her hand; I smell her scent,
Drawn by instinct; I pull and bend,
Tasting her lips so full and sweet,
Filling with desire the man beneath.

Soft skin i touch; a delicate moan,
Silent whispers and a whimsical tone,
She smiles at me with those secretive eyes,
And hints at mischief the mysterious child.

We gaze together at the moonlit night,
We measure the horizons and the infinite,
Atlast she falls beside my rest,
And heaves a sigh; with her head on my chest!

Mine

Unaware of this mystical world ,
that precedes me;
Unaware of this magical trait of life that,
engulfs me in its glorified splendour;
I walk on. . .Trapped in a mirage;
Looking for an exit,
that defines my road to existence;
Painful pleasures haunt me enticingly;
But, I walk on. . .
Maneuvering my life to my flights of fantasy;
My life, my own possession. . .
Or is it ?
Is it really mine?

Bafflement

A hole in my head,
I can't think straight.
A whole in your heart,
You can't tell apart.

My time less love,
My fate less love.
A hole in my head,
I can't think straight.

Your time less time,
Your fate less fate.
A whole in your heart,
You can't tell apart.

This world we see,
You and I make we.
Oh! Can't you see?
We were never meant to be.

You are... but, my ppitome!

Hand in hand we walked through the chasms of time,
Darkness engulfed our expanse,
Untold fears hovered over and blinded us,
But your grip was taut and firm.
Alas! A speck of hopeful light,
An oasis in the desert.
Eyes shining bright and hearts brimming with life,
You led me through and through, our blazing souls in togetherness.
Eternity, I await thee.